Lent: Lead Me

It's so hard somedays.
To do those things I scream against.
I lied today, with good intent, saying what I wanted to be the truth... but it's not there yet, and I know my eyes told the story of my heart. I needed God's strength to do what I did, and still I'm not sure if I did the right thing. Not to mention I didn't enjoy doing it- perhaps that's good though, because obviously we enjoy sin to some extent or else it wouldn't be so addicting. I just pray God will continue to guide and lead me as I trust Him to do so. He has everything taken care of. Finished 2nd Samuel today- David has some great characteristics I would like to explore... In the last chapter (24) David wants to buy Araunah's threshing floor to build an altar to God. This is King David so of course Araunah is like "have everything you want," this is how David replies;

"But the king replied to Araunah, "No, I insist on paying you for it. I will not sacrifice to the LORD my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing."

Why bother sacrificing something that is no sacrifice at all?
God is more valuable than all and everything, yet we do not truly value him when we offer up our silly sacrifices that cost us nothing.

This song has been stuck in my head all day today, the words ring true:

Good God, if your song leaves our lips
If your work leaves our hands
Then we will be wonders and vagabonds
They will stare and say how empty we are
How the freedom we had turned us up as dead men
- Too Bright to See, Too Loud to Hear (Underoath)